i hate leaving like this...making it seem like i am running away from my probs..
but i dun haf a choice..flight leaves in 5hrs time
To where? Brunei, Camp Lakin..aka HELL
For what? Training
Why there? Dunno..dun ask me..
Ask who then? Defence Minister?
How long? I cant count
When coming back? 7oct..do the maths
How u feeling now? Like shit
But u r...Sh... yea i noe..huhu..damn u r funny..f*ckhead

aite peeps..cya ard soon..

Take me away, coz i juz dun wanna stay..

not always is it true.
Sometimes pride is temporary and pain is forever
in cases that pertain to the heart
matters that cause pain emotionally
patching your broken wings and continue to fly
fuse with a zephyr and learn how to soar
breeze that turned into a flurry
bringing u down again
hurt again

no matter how sure
take time to think
think through
everything u gonna do
choices made in seconds
become scars that last foreva
scars that not only exist on the surface
but also inside

sometime inevitability steps in
like a hurricane and tsunami it may come
but leave u in a state that brings u nothing but pain
stop u muz not
troubles are all part of struggling in life
pick urself off the ground
look at the sky and say it out
thanks for the chance for letting me live
oppurtunities like that
something not everyone is grateful for
take a look around and look at the signs
the abilities u have not everyone gets
so what is a bit of pain to make u understand
that life after this would be more than u can reminisce
appreciate what u haf in ur life
then mayb u would understand
a whole new meaning to the
words that read

pain is temporary pride is foreva

Last sat was a bitch..we all had to stay back in camp coz sun was another bitch..yea sun was AHM (Army half marathon)...it sounds so nice...HALF marathon..slut...HALF a marathon is 21 KILOMETERS...well i already did run 22km during my days in sispec...but it nvr crossed my mind tat i had to go tru it again..Firstly i didnt feel like running...but if i walked all the way..it would take at least close to 5hrs to complete...and 5hrs is a shit load of time..i juz wanted to get over and done with it..so took a slow jog..cutting a few "corners"..and made it to the end...was shagged..i didnt even haf any sleep the nite b4...how the hell was i to put myself to sleep at ard 8pm..when i juz woke up from the previous day's sleep at 5pm...confused? nvm forget it...i juz didnt sleep...well almost everyone in my bunk didnt sleep b4 the run...we were playing cards for hours..but its all over now...so after that part of regiment mlayu together with some of my men went to watch The Longest Yard...hilarious..nice movie..but b4 tat..i had to go meet this someone..a heartbreaker..who nvr failed in her duty yet again..(haha looks like i'm getting used to it)..then i almost didnt make it in time for the movie coz my key got stuck in the key slot...and i cudnt find a parking lot in suntec..after tat it was shopping for stuff for our brunei trip in beach rd..then HSH..
Brunei is juz ard the corner...and everyone whom i asked bout tat place said it was tough..oh well..i guess its all part of life..juz like the heart breakingS..haha..

Last week i juz went for a routine dental check up coz i had these toothache for like months..so i scheduled an appt with the mindef dental centre . It was gonna b my first dental check up it god knows how many yrs..as expected the problem was caused by 2 of my wisdom teeth..1 was impacted and the other deacying..they decaying one could b extracted easily..the other was a stubborn one and needs cutting and stitching..so last fri i got the decaying one extracted easily.And boy did it leave a blood waterfall for hours and a gaping hole ..I sure did had difficulty chewing food..so juz for a day i was on a liquid diet..Today the hole is shut..and i can chew normally..now my toothache is minimised to my lower jaw only..

Last week, I nvr thought i would make tru the field camp..Today it was finally all over...It sure did feel like forever..all outfield exercises are bout feeding mosquitos...a past time..

• mosquitos are insects tat breed on still water
• they have chemical sensors tat can sense carbon dioxide and lactic acid up to 100 feet away. Mammals and birds gives off these gases as part of their normal breathing. Certain chemicals in sweat also seem to attract mosquitoes ..
• they also have Visual sensors which means that if you are wearing clothing that contrasts with the background, and especially if you move while wearing that clothing, mosquitoes can see you and zero in on you. It's a good bet that anything moving is "alive", and therefore full of blood, so this is a good strategy.
• they also have Heat sensors - Mosquitoes can detect heat, so they can find warm-blooded mammals and birds very easily once they get close enough.
• They are strong fliers, capable of travelling great distances (up to 121 km) from their breeding sites. They persistently bite mammals (especially humans), mainly at dawn and in the early evening. Their bites are painful. Oh boy they sure are!
• They bite everywhere..even where u least expect it..
• I JUZ LOVE MOSQUITOES!!!!!!!

But this was definitely the most tiring exercise i ever had.But it was kinda fun too..especially when izhar was stung by a scorpion during a tactical halt and there he was with his pants down, explaining tat he felt a "buring sensation"..And the night at the fibua village were the platoon exchanged ghost stories trying to freak each other out..The fact tat our exercise enemy were reservists, didnt help at all..but i felt sad for them..there they were in their early 30s pushing their limits..some of them had to leave their wives, children and jobs just to go through this sh*t...The worst part of the exercise was the 10+ km walk to our objective..not only were we in the blistering mid day sun, the terrain wasnt tat encouraging either...Furthermore most of us only had a couple of hours of sleep the night b4...i cant believe its all over now...next destination...BRUNEI...of course nobody is expecting it to b any easier.. and then there is the AHM this wkend...21km run...sad case..Soon it'll b all over..there was something impt tat i learnt over the week..When u haf an oppurtunity to do something u like...Go for it..who cares wat ur frens think..to hell wif wat the others say...the impt thing is to b tru to urself..oppurtunities come only once..if u r lucky mayb twice..but if u dun make use of tat oppurtunity..u may later regret it..coz no matter how hard u try to make something happen when the window is closed, it may nvr happen again..i learned it the hard way..prevention is definitely better coz there is no cure for this mistake..only regret..