i hate pharrell williams...watching him on tv rite now...he is such an attention seeking poser...if only i could punch him...he thinks he is so f*cking cool and all..he juz sucks..i dunno y i am typing this..ok..so its been a gd week for me...finally got to taste an indian pub..it was a totally different feeling...i've nvr been to an indain pub b4 this, coz i only visited popular typical r&b and h h places..and i was so excited when pandian finally told me he wud bring me...(haha like small kid like tat)...well it was a gd experience..its definitely more happening..And the ratio of boys : gals is more or less equal...so every1 gets a fair portion of flesh..haha..then there was ippt..one of my last chances to land my gold..and $200...and i nailed it on mon..it was a gd feeling..then there was SOC on wed...which i failed coz i fell off the swinging bridge thing and injured myself..b4 that someone also kicked me on the swinging trainer..goddammit...so there was another test today morning which i passed...b4 this the last i did SOC was over a year ago..back in sispec..totally unprepared...but wtf...its over..so its on to this sat then..Combat Marksmenship Shoot...if i nail that also it wud b another $200...which means my subsequent pay wud be $700 + $200 + $200 = $1100....tats like an officer's pay..it sure feels gd thinking bout it..i haf been staying in camp most of the time lately..cant b bothered to go for all these half day offs..so me and some of my buds rent VCDs almost every 3 days..and haf movie marathons..i think in 2 weeks i haf watched 20 new movies already...and i cant even rmbr all the titles..well i'm off to club again later..haha another indian pub....hope got no fights..i really need to b alive tom..cya ard then..

My room is gr8 now...it was everything i wished for when i was younger...it wasnt cheap..hell nothing here is cheap if u use ur own money to buy..well except fo the air-con..LCD tv,hi-fi,ps2,scv,computer,cable,car...all with my own hard earned cash...well if u r wondering how i get so much things being a NSF...its not only the army tat pays me..well there r other stuff..mayb if i meet u and sat down for a cup of coffee and u r interested to noe..i can tell u...but the coffee is on u..life is ok..well other than the thought of doing SOC on tues..everything else is pretty fine..got most of my probs sorted out..gotta thank god for tat..but changes will come..things will happen...its not up to me to choose what changes i want, when i want it..its not in my hands..i've got gd frens who make the most of the time we hang out...allowing us to cherish most of the times we can b together..although at times we dun realise it...but give it a few yrs down the road..we would b thinking bout it laughing our heads out.."did i really do tat?"...i am certainly not deprived of anything...here i am again typing, watching tv.....wondering wat is it tats missing in my life..its times like this when i realised..it would b nice to haf a girlfren..ok i lied....IT WOULD B GREAT TO HAVE A GALFREN...no i am not desperate...notice the choice of words...i used "would" in other words i am trying to say that "hey look here...it might b nice to haf a gf..but if i dun haf a gf...well its ok..i dun care...i wun die"...ok i lied again..i do feel deprived..its been...hmmm let me count...8yrs since i had a "real gf"...well the rest of 'em didnt last even 2 weeks..well i juz cant find one...dunno where to find one...u c i am not really a gd sweet talker..coz my image doesnt match the words i speak so i quit sweet talking...if u c me in person and i am sweet talking to u...u wud probably thing i am a rapist or smth....haha..up to u lah..i dunno wat to say also...u c i frankly haf no idea wat women want...i am certainly at a loss...i mean life is gd these days...but will it b better if a had a gf or wud it b worse?i started smoking "professionally" coz of a gal..stupid excuse..but true..now i'm addicted..but am trying to quit..more like trying to fail to quit...well i really dunno...mayb i should juz sleep on it...mayb when i wake up tom i wud haf an sms..asking me out..."dream on...dream on... dream on... dream until ur dream comes true..." nitez..

So many things were said bout brunei even before i stepped into the abode of peace..It wasnt tat bad..the terrain was back breaking..but it wasnt as hard as pple talked about..well maybe some of the conditions we were in were quite uncomfortable..all wet and stuff..but other than that it was pretty ok..it was a good experience..we had 1 day of m & m (mosque & museum) which was the most boring part of the whole journey..only fruitfull thing i did was probably watching a movie (flightplan) to kill time..its gd to b back..havent got any fotos coz my cam failed on me..waiting for the others to send me some...now for ATEC..tats in thailand. Feb i think...5 more months to ORD...