I cant believe i said i need to find a gf in the last post...sounds so desperate...but tat actually is really not the case... i am happy the way i am...mayb i was spiked when i was typing the last post...so...juz forget it..
i am happy with the way things are going now... juz hope i get to live for the future...coz i really thought i died the other day...

had a fall and hit my head hard...dun ask howcome?how u fall? what were u doing? its all not important for u to find out...all tat's impt is i hit my head hard on the floor...for a moment..my whole body was numb...i swear i could smell death inches away...then suddenly, out of the moment...i regained control of my movements...the rest is history..tat was 2 days ago..mayb it was a wake up call...

wat wud u do?

do u need something to happen b4 u find out tat life is precious?

stop wasting your time...make things happen...make the most out of the moments...

for u may nvr noe when u'll b gone..

dont take life for granted...

So it began...after long searches for work...finally got to do what i wanted to do for quite some time...a driver..
Work is tough...doesnt pay well...
who cares..
"few people like what they do, fewer still do what they like"

In the longrun...it will benefit me in someways...expansion is the plan..
got lots of plans in the near future...more mods for the lancer-R...
most impt...haf to find a gf...actually dun even haf to be a gf...juz be a fren for a certain day can already..

got this chalet coming up in may..compulsory to bring ur partner for a certain day of the chalet...goddam it...cant believe my luck is so bad..i haf to b the only one in the whole group who is not attached...cant blame me..haf the time i'm not interested...the other half of the time...the opp sex not interested..

so life goes on...juz like the songs tat play in the lancer-R...full of meaning..

tom i shall start fishing...
cya

Thailand was whacked...fun, full of memories...ATEC was gd.. Got back on the 4th...not as pre-planned...but it was ok...getting stuffed at the canteen...and burning cash on the lan shop was great fun.. outfield was scorching...amazingly it rained in amazing thailand when out battalion went out for our first battalion ex... it always rains when the stingrays go outfield was the saying...however again amazingly in amazing thailand in didnt rain at all from ATEC till we got back..huh!?..nvm..
Today was my ORD...pink ic finally...its a shame how 2yrs and 2 months of my life in the army, tat was full of great times and experiences...tat eventually changed several aspects of life, had to come to a CRASHING (damn jialat...f*cking jialat lah) end...sad..really sad..

people can be assholes at times...i would love to mention names...but lets give them another chance..forgiving and forgetting..

Its funny when u one something so sincerely bad...u try so hard to get it...planned soooo much to do something with it...planned too far ahead...

then u dont get it...

its like getting hit by a car doing 100kmh...u dun haf time to react...

Your life comes to a standstill...
So stagnant...
U r lost..Unprepared
Scared..

u haf been there...u haf made it thus far
but of corz..never expecting a repetition of results...
its not like u didnt achieve anything out of the effort..
its a learning process...
the harder it is to realise a loss...
the more it shows how much you have learned..

all is not lost..

"Only a man who knows what it is like to be defeated can reach down to the bottom of his soul and come up with the extra ounce of power it takes to win when the match is even. " - Muhammad Ali

"The man who can drive himself further once the effort gets painful is the man who will win. " Roger Bannister ,British Athlete, First Sub 4 Minute Miler

keep on trying...
i wish self motivation was tat easy...

life has to go on..