My room is gr8 now...it was everything i wished for when i was younger...it wasnt cheap..hell nothing here is cheap if u use ur own money to buy..well except fo the air-con..LCD tv,hi-fi,ps2,scv,computer,cable,car...all with my own hard earned cash...well if u r wondering how i get so much things being a NSF...its not only the army tat pays me..well there r other stuff..mayb if i meet u and sat down for a cup of coffee and u r interested to noe..i can tell u...but the coffee is on u..life is ok..well other than the thought of doing SOC on tues..everything else is pretty fine..got most of my probs sorted out..gotta thank god for tat..but changes will come..things will happen...its not up to me to choose what changes i want, when i want it..its not in my hands..i've got gd frens who make the most of the time we hang out...allowing us to cherish most of the times we can b together..although at times we dun realise it...but give it a few yrs down the road..we would b thinking bout it laughing our heads out.."did i really do tat?"...i am certainly not deprived of anything...here i am again typing, watching tv.....wondering wat is it tats missing in my life..its times like this when i realised..it would b nice to haf a girlfren..ok i lied....IT WOULD B GREAT TO HAVE A GALFREN...no i am not desperate...notice the choice of words...i used "would" in other words i am trying to say that "hey look here...it might b nice to haf a gf..but if i dun haf a gf...well its ok..i dun care...i wun die"...ok i lied again..i do feel deprived..its been...hmmm let me count...8yrs since i had a "real gf"...well the rest of 'em didnt last even 2 weeks..well i juz cant find one...dunno where to find one...u c i am not really a gd sweet talker..coz my image doesnt match the words i speak so i quit sweet talking...if u c me in person and i am sweet talking to u...u wud probably thing i am a rapist or smth....haha..up to u lah..i dunno wat to say also...u c i frankly haf no idea wat women want...i am certainly at a loss...i mean life is gd these days...but will it b better if a had a gf or wud it b worse?i started smoking "professionally" coz of a gal..stupid excuse..but true..now i'm addicted..but am trying to quit..more like trying to fail to quit...well i really dunno...mayb i should juz sleep on it...mayb when i wake up tom i wud haf an sms..asking me out..."dream on...dream on... dream on... dream until ur dream comes true..." nitez..