Thailand was whacked...fun, full of memories...ATEC was gd.. Got back on the 4th...not as pre-planned...but it was ok...getting stuffed at the canteen...and burning cash on the lan shop was great fun.. outfield was scorching...amazingly it rained in amazing thailand when out battalion went out for our first battalion ex... it always rains when the stingrays go outfield was the saying...however again amazingly in amazing thailand in didnt rain at all from ATEC till we got back..huh!?..nvm..
Today was my ORD...pink ic finally...its a shame how 2yrs and 2 months of my life in the army, tat was full of great times and experiences...tat eventually changed several aspects of life, had to come to a CRASHING (damn jialat...f*cking jialat lah) end...sad..really sad..

people can be assholes at times...i would love to mention names...but lets give them another chance..forgiving and forgetting..

Its funny when u one something so sincerely bad...u try so hard to get it...planned soooo much to do something with it...planned too far ahead...

then u dont get it...

its like getting hit by a car doing 100kmh...u dun haf time to react...

Your life comes to a standstill...
So stagnant...
U r lost..Unprepared
Scared..

u haf been there...u haf made it thus far
but of corz..never expecting a repetition of results...
its not like u didnt achieve anything out of the effort..
its a learning process...
the harder it is to realise a loss...
the more it shows how much you have learned..

all is not lost..

"Only a man who knows what it is like to be defeated can reach down to the bottom of his soul and come up with the extra ounce of power it takes to win when the match is even. " - Muhammad Ali

"The man who can drive himself further once the effort gets painful is the man who will win. " Roger Bannister ,British Athlete, First Sub 4 Minute Miler

keep on trying...
i wish self motivation was tat easy...

life has to go on..